Horses of Hope that Touch the Core of My Soul

10/02/2011 18:53:00

Sunday, October 02, 2011 6:14 PM

Yesterday I found out that I have a month to find a new home for my 3 horses. My heart hurts thinking about the possibility of have to letting them go.. Oh my gosh I have had Blue about 22 years since she was 3 years old. Samm picked me at the age of 2 month up in a pastures of mares and babies in the cornfields of Iowa. So I have had him 18 years , his whole life and Chaz who is a son of Blue, was born and I imprinted about 10 minutes after he dropped to the ground 6 years ago. I have watched each of these 3 horses touch children , teens and adults lives reaching down into their souls.

The last 4 months have probably been the "dark night of my soul" where I would cry out to Jesus to let me just feel Him to cover me with His peace that is beyond all understanding. He does that for me when I ask. I lost my dad and my job teaching at the school of nursing within 2 weeks.. It literally took the breath out of me.. I would sit in my prayer corner everyday grieving to the bone...It has charged me to look at the ugly things in me...false pride, judgementalness, materialism and jealousy. I read the books that my pastor told me to and wrote in my journal and participated in Theophostic Prayer Ministry. I experienced huge amounts of healing and was able to tease out the different parts of grief…

Because of my financial situation I was only to go up to Clinton to visit my friends about once a month. Sometimes I could tell Samm was mad at me and he would ignore me and turn his hind end to me. Once I was able to spend the night up there while Sandra went to the beach and it was awesome. I played in the sprinkler with Chaz and Tex and was able to spend individual time with each of my precious friends, grooming them and loving on them. It was so awesome to look out the windows of Sandra's home and see my friends grazing in the pasture. The next morning I had coffee outside with them, doing my devotionals and spending quiet time with the Lord… That 24 hours was such a blessing to my soul….I felt it at the core. Today after celebrating my pastor's 20 year anniversary in St. Francisville ..I went to Clinton where Sandra and I rode...of course I rode Samm and he was awesome...It has to be God's magic in how it always heals my pain all the way to my soul.

I truly believe God named this program, Horses of Hope, to remind me that He has allowed me to keep my friends through many rough financial spots over the last 15 years.. They are my horses of hope.. Thank You Father for touching the "ouch" in my soul today with my horses of hope.

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